TIME AND CHANGE

There was a time that I thought, in the naivety of my thinking, many years ago, that my life would always be somewhat as it was.

You know, when one is in the prime of their youth, there's the strength, the beauty, the agility, the good health, sometimes the prospect of financial security, etc... The thought at the time is that one would always be able to go and shop for whatever they would have a mind and financial means to buy. That person may never consider that these aspects of life could drastically change.

As the years go by, one by one, things begin to change in some people's lives and no matter what they try to do to rectify the changes, they can't.

I was only 37 years old when my then 14 year old daughter began to tell me that I was old. The first time she said it, I laughed, but I was sort of in shock that she would say it because I thought I still looked young. I didn't consider the fact that she had only lived a few short years of her life, so she would not think anything else other than I was old. But I'll tell you, my heart was broken.

Later, my spouse of at that time of 25 years decided that he was through with our life together and without explanation decided to move out and on with his life. When that happened, the finances began to fall through the floor and my life turned upside down. "TIME and CHANGE"! All the years prior to this, I considered myself financially secure; thinking that he would never leave me. I thought our union was the special one that would live on until one of us parted in death.

Not long after that, my health decided to go on its own path causing many illnesses. "TIME and CHANGE"! Yes, the quality of my hair changed. I would curl it one way and the locks would do what they wanted to do when I went to style my hair. My teeth are no longer my teeth. Having had 20/20 vision for so long, even it changed to where I have to wear glasses. I can't lay my glasses down because then I would forget where I laid them and find myself going back to the dollar store to buy a new pair. At one point, I had about 6 pairs of dollar store reading glasses. "TIME and CHANGE"!

Time does brings about a change. I am now 59 years old and I have been through many storms; I almost became homeless, and thanks be to God who kept me and brought me to the place of peace that I'm in right now.

Oh, I still live in the same old house; I don't get around as much as I'd like to; my hair looks wiry; I can't do my housework like I used to; I still don't have a companion; but I am in that space of peace that now makes me look back over my life and thank God for where I am at right now.

I still BELIEVE that there is nothing that I can't do, that I have a different kind of beauty and that I can go where I want to go. I'm just glad that the peace of God that I have, allows me to accept and be thankful for the changes that time has delivered to me.
Let me know how time has brought about change in your life.